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This feels like the worst day of my life, but I know it actually isn't. Since my practicum, I have lost all confidence in my skills and even the knowledge that I acquired. I feel dumb, and it's the most dishearting feeling in the world. I need to sit down and study my life away just to be successful because my marks are going down hill quickly.

I feel like I should just stay in school for another two years because I'm obviously missing quite a bit of knowledge they are trying to teach us. I hate feeling like this, like I'm some kind of unpopular failure at this program.

Even worse is the fact that I know I'm acting way too emotional about the whole thing, and that the feeling will pass. I just wish I was a better person and better at the things that I try at.

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ozzypoos
Apr. 1st, 2010 10:49 pm (UTC)
A tl;dr warning
You know as well as I do that you're the furthest from dumb, and while you might feel like you might be on days, you are a really intelligent person. Hell, you're far more intelligent than I am. You can't judge your skills only from that practicum you did - remember everything else that you've done as well, and how well you've done them. Don't ever just focus on the bad :) Everyone has a bad day from time to time, and you should never let it make you think that you don't hold the skill to do what you're studying for. I know you, and I also know that you're extremely talented and well suited for what you're doing.

Stress can do funny things to people, but it always makes people too over emotional - I know I get to that point when stressed. You should never wish to be a better person because you simply could never become a better person... you already are a fantastic and wonderful person. Don't ever change, and don't ever forget that.

Take the Easter break to have some time to yourself... to de-stress yourself. Do whatever makes you relax and that you enjoy. You know your work, but if you allow yourself to get this stressed, you won't be able to absorb it all properly.

You are wonderful just the way that you are, Nata :)
Don't let it get you down.

Regardless of the situation, we are all here for you, always ♥
baroness_lamia
Apr. 2nd, 2010 04:16 am (UTC)
*HUG* That feeling is what killed me in the final year at college and it's devastating. The only way to feel 'better' is to do something that makes you happy, even if it's as little as 15 minutes of walking around or gameplay. Hang in there.
deutschmouse
Apr. 3rd, 2010 01:37 am (UTC)
Walk into a health store and buy these: http://healthzone.shoptoit.ca/shop/product--catId_1000059__productId_10849097.html

I swear to god, they are the anti-angst.
yashakizu
Apr. 3rd, 2010 04:12 pm (UTC)
*hugs*
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