My radiology class is going to be the death of me. I thought that I knew the material fairly well, but the marks that I've been getting back are less than satisfactory. I've never struggled in a class for this program more than radiology. It doesn't help that we have the Marking Nazi as our teacher. She's a great teacher and knows her stuff, but she marks like we should all be going to hell and rotting there. She even marks wrong for different ways of explaining things, so wording things in your own way is out.

I have to start getting prepared for my two practicums too. I really don't know how it will go, since we're thrown into the job with the training that we have, and I can't say that I feel ready. Working in a vet clinic is going to be fun, but I worry that I'm going to feel dumb or something. Plus, the one place that I want to go is relatively inaccessible at this time; I don't really want to pay for a hotel for three weeks.

It sucks staying at school for 11-12 hours a day. I don't have a life, and my moods are crap. :/

I don't even have the motivation for role-playing right now. I can't bring myself to hiatus just yet either. There should be more time in the day.

Has anyone had a job where co-workers make you feel stupid? Like, I know I'm a fairly educated person, but there are a lot of times in my summer job where I am made to feel like not knowing something deserves shunning. I think what's worse is that if you attempt to do something anyway (to stumble your way through and teach it to yourself by reading to box instructions), you get people telling you off. Asking doesn't help, since then they actually tell you to read the box instructions anyway.

There's just something about some of my co-workers that just rub me the wrong way. Some have such a nasty double-standard, especially when it comes to work ethic. It's apparently okay for them to stand around shooting the shit, but damn, if you happen to stop to listen to a story someone is telling, you are going to get told off. I don't think I've actually worked in a place like this before.

It doesn't help that I'm quite tired. School was a whirl-wind tour for eight months and now I'm working as hard as I can to make enough money to pay for the next semester of school. Then I get another whirl-wind tour for another ten months until I graduate with my diploma. I just need a holiday, but I suppose that's something to look forward to... you know, once I graduate, find a job, move house, and settle into a new life completely.

Change is scary sometimes. I just try not to think about it much. Getting through the summer and then second year of school is what stresses me most... and the money issue. :/

OMG! A post! Apparently, they still exist. >.> They just don't happen often anymore.

This is yet another pointless and over-dramatized rant about something that bugs me to the bottom most point of my left ventricle (because it is larger and has more power to pump my disdain). It think that it's bothered me for years, since I first became aware of them years and years ago. I find them pointless, cowardly, and a horrible waste of everyone's precious time. They usually end up becoming vile pits for dislike, over-opinionated riff-raff, blatant pointing of fingers and unfounded accusations.

Yes, I'm talking about you "Anonymous Comms", where everyone in your f-list supports a horrible way to speak out against injustice (or just rant like a banshee about pointless tripe no one cares about but needs to get a dig about anyway). There are several out there to my knowledge, and I hate every single one of them. They are the most degrading and offensive communities that are on Livejournal.

Now, they are infecting the internet with their srs business crap that involves anonymous memes, anonymous critiques, and anonymous food orders (okay, I made one up). I do know that the internet is clearly srs business, but have we really reduced ourselves to needing to hide behind an anonymous sign just to get a real honest-to-god opinion? And the opinions that are generally had are littered with over-dramatization, break down a person's self-esteem, involve wank like crazy, and breed all manner of hate and dislike.

All of them (communities especially) are like pits of hungry sharks and when blood is introduced, they go CRAZY and take huge bites out of anything in their pond. The slander good communities, good people, and good concepts all for the purpose of 'making something better' or 'just cause'. It's a horrible policy to do business. Cowards do anonymous stuff. Get a backbone and show your face and name if you want to have a real opinion heard.

Livejournal banned communities for sexual content and got flamed for it. Livejournal lets blatant harassment go on under their nose because it doesn't fall in their 'harassment' policy so long as names aren't mentioned or other personal information. It's a piss off.

I hope people who go out of their way to run someone or something down in an anonymous community fall on a pointed stick and have it jab into their liver. They deserve it, the asstards.

School is trying to eat into my skull and devour my poor brain. I think the most difficult class in substance and class experience is Veterinary Clinical Pathology (study of blood and other lovely bodily fluids). It's like a massive info dump every class, and I end up wandering out with a headache every single time.

We have a few new teachers that are kind of so-so with their teaching, but it is their first time. I know some people are frustrated that we are paying money and not actually getting the full teaching experience, but... that's what a textbook is for.

Fecal Fridays... last class of the day and we get to look under a microscope at poop. It is a smelly, kind of nasty feeling lab... but oh so fun. My only frustration is that I haven't seen any little buggly eggs in any of my samples (which is good for the animal but bad for me). I want my learning experience! Where are the bugglies?! So sad... maybe we can view some tapeworm eggs next week.

Though, next week is going to be a like a kick to the teeth. I have a quiz/test every day of the week, sometimes two on one day. Oh my brain... where will you go while I cram information packages inside of you.

All this school work makes it really difficult to RP. I'm having a lot of trouble keeping up with the two that I'm in right now, and I keep telling myself it will be alright. I am coming to realize that I will probably have to drop one of them, but that decision seems so... final.

At least I get to train my dog patient. That's always fun.

Spending two years away from school hasn't affected me as much as I thought it might have, but it is hard to keep excellent study habits when I'm used to having evenings and weekends as my own time. It was kind of easy in the beginning and the faculty made it seem like we would be eased in and helped along every step.

Day 3 was like getting smashed with the scientific dictionary. It was fast-paced and difficult to keep up with, and the teachers used words without definition that they expected us to know. It was really the first time that I came home after classes and immediately began to study my course notes to pick up on what I missed... and oh boy, it was a lot that I missed. I figure it gets worse from here on in, so I better get used to feeling frazzled and dumb until the terms become more clear.

Of course, the plus side is that the animals coming in came from my old workplace. Two animals I actually worked with, so I was happy to see them. I was paired up with a dog, but that dog has yet to arrive at the facility. I'm hoping taking the brute for a walk will clear my head and keep my on track!

It's actually kind of bad when I am left wondering who of my class will drop first. I'm hoping that everyone keeps going, but it's more material than even I expected (and I have a degree already). I can only imagine what someone from high school would think about course material like this, but you know what, it has been a long time since I was in high school. Times change, so maybe they will know more than I do.

The hardest part is running from the main building over to the science building. We really have to book it to get there in ten minutes and even then... some of us don't yet make it on time. We may not learn anything but mid-semester but damn it, we'll be in good shape! It will get worse with tons of snow too... I hope it's light this year.

I think my internet time is going to be cut into severely too. It kind of makes me nervous since I like the internet like whoa! We'll see in the coming weeks how things turn out, but I'm hoping that I get a better grasp so I can have my time on the 'net still.

This might just be me saying. Have you ever tried to be friends with someone and feel like your efforts are completely wasted? I bet it's just a matter of being 'too sensitive' over the idea. Wasn't it supposed to be 'give a little, get a little'?

On a brighter note, there seems to be a lot to do in the upcoming dayshift for damned. I hope that I can keep up, since this will be rather important meetings for one of my characters. It will hopefully build up some relationships outside of his fandom... well, fighter-types at least. Things had better go well anyway!

Hopefully the post-poned convention will be announced soon. I would be mad if it was called off completely, since it will be my first anime convention. Maybe I jinxed it. XD It sounds fairly positive that something has been worked out, but this waiting game is painful (I also happen to be waiting for my course list from the university, but that is bound to scare my pants off).

PS - Gackt... get out of my fandom.

*sigh* I think I really screwed up in damned. Sometimes I really wonder why the heck I do that? I need to stop assuming things, since this is the second times it's gotten me in trouble. -_-

I feel like a complete loser.

It's been a week today since I resigned from my job. It still feels like a vacation, though I admit to already being forgetful when it comes to the days of the week. I have to keep checking my computer calender in order to remember. And thankfully, work hasn't called me to ask questions and the like, though I keep dreaming about work. -_-

It's only a few more days before ozzypoos arrives in Canada to stay with me for the next six months. It feels really weird to think about that, but I think it will be alright as well. I have plenty planned on what we are going to do and see, and I hope she doesn't think trees and mountains are boring or I could be in trouble. XD I'm still laughing about her having to experience a true Canadian winter, though mom says I should take her skiing. That would probably be completely disasterous.

Funny how I am almost finished the next chapter to Killer Instinct, but now that Sephiroth has arrived on the scene with his panties in a bunch I am having writer's block. I really would like to finish the chapter before Ozzy arrives. I figure that punishing Cloud is one thing that I'm really good at, so I'm not sure why my brain is farting over this.

*sigh* I wasted away the entire dinner shift in damned. I almost wish that Cloud was medicated in the morning instead of the evening, since it's so hard to get it done. He's all pissy about getting drugs shoved down his throat. I didn't even do anything with poor Hohenheim for dinner. He's probably too busy writing himself notes to really eat too much.

damned is driving me crazy! CRAZY!

Okay, not the RP community, but my silly Hohenheim muse. He's been attacking my brain in that silent scheming way of his. He wants me to post more for him, and I really want to as well... hell, I would spam the community with his mad alchemic blabbering if I could. Unfortunately, that would be so out of character for him, it would probably warrant me getting a slap upside the head.

He's all eager and new and SHINY, and he says the weirdest things. He's so bad about throwing random pieces of unrelated information out in a conversation. I wanted to post for him on the bulletin board, but he's still in the mode of hiding himself from everyone who might be looking for him that I can't.

Not even Edward's shaking or rough way of telling him to get off his duff and do something useful hasn't spurred him enough. So sad he's the kind of guy who lurks around in the shadows because he has so much knowledge to share... and random tangents too. It's fun to have everyone angry at him and he's completely accepting of that fact. I suppose people get really strange when they have lived for 400+ years.

Though, I'm so happy! Only one character has tried to kill him! He's passed under the radar more than I expected... or maybe I had high-hopes for his arrival. o.O;;; I can never tell sometimes.

It's days like these that make me appreciate the fact that I've handed in my resignation at work. Despite having the largest amount of staff on possible, it seemed like nothing could actually go right. That's actually not true... we cleaned fast and did what had to be done as per general maintance.

( Cut for Ranting that probably makes no sense )

I'm just looking forward to being able to sit for my two days off and catching up with my RPs which I am lagging on. I almost feel like losing myself in writing an application for another character in damned, but I don't know who I should apply for. Actually, I have two character I could, but... uh, the application is so long. -_- What should I do?

TokyoPop is breaking up into two companies... meaning they will be putting out half of the manga they normally do. That makes me a sad panda. Tokyopop does pretty quality manga, but I haven't had any confirmations on if they are cutting some of their ongoing series. X_X

The only nice part is that they are still releasing .Hack//G.U.+ Vol 2... like yesterday. And they are releasing .Hack//XXXX, which made me squee in my pants. I have wanted to read that manga for so long, and it almost makes me want to apply for Kite in damned because he's such a cutie-poo... and so passive aggressive at times. I hope they don't make him as much of an ass as they did in Another Birth. Only Haseo can be the master ass for the .Hack// series... oh and Skeith, but they seem to feel off each other's asshole~ishness. I wonder if I can apply for an Fragment of Morganna. o.O;;;

Actually, not sure if I could handle another character in damned anyway. The two I have now are fun, and I'm completely unprepared for the application cycle. I think because I was one of the last people to receive my notification last time, it doesn't feel like it's been all that long. All I can say is that I'm happy that I snagged Hohenheim.

I can't remember the last time that I posted. Seriously, I can't. That must mean that it was over a month ago. Since I'm paying for this journal, I mine as well use it. XD

I put in my resignation for work. That leaves me a tragic amount of free time to RP and write fanfiction. But that's okay and come Sept 2nd, I'll probably lose any life that I thought I had as I head back to school. Hopefully, I'll have lots of RPing and fanfiction out of the way... so I can concentrate on gaining awesome skillz in university.

I'm going down to Anime Evolution in Vancouver and PAX in Seattle. Hopefully, it will be fun. They will be the first conventions that I will have ever attended. I'm looking forward to it. :D

Is it bad that my brain has been violently taken over by CloudxElena? It's never happened before, and I admit being WTF about it. I think it is safe to blame the original starters for this, which would be thoughts of CloudxTifa smut. I will point my finger over at anrixan for those starter ones.

Anyway, I got my personal appraisal from by employer. The vote? I'm a damn awesome employee, but my ability to communicate sucks at times. Yeah, tell me something that I didn't know, would you?

Oh, and I'm finally working on Killer Instinct again. It's been slow because I'm having a fiddily confrontation of sorts that has made me have to do some research on lines and such that would and wouldn't be said. That asides, I think it's going well. Hopefully, that Final Fantasy VII fic will wait its turn.

D:

There is so much bad fanfiction out there. It makes me want to cry. I think what I find far worse than bad fiction itself is that some of them start with an absolutely wonderful idea, but either their writing skills or ability to pace out the fic appropriately (sometimes both) is like a kick to the groin.

I find it sad to see such good flickers of ideas get butchered like a baby seal. Of course, it makes me want to write some of those ideas, but I can't. I consider that stealing, even though... it was a terrible fic.

Speaking with a friend about it, it really is sad to have that feeling of being so let down after thinking that the concept would shine through the miles of crap laid on top of it. The painful reading isn't worth for that small gem of an idea. We are both of the thinking that we should write them just so there is something good out there (assuming it can be salvaged).

I was tossing around the idea of doing a few challenges. I was thinking that over and realized that I know so few series that it would be difficult. Damn my sheltered life!

If anyone has an idea for a fic they want written, pass it along. I might see if I can poke at it... which may be doubtful. D:

Don't you just hate it when you are cleaning the bathroom (no, not mine) and you find yellow streaks down the wall next to/behind the toilet? I mean, seriously gentlemen... piss in the hole, not around it.

And if you miss, clean it up, you f-ing pigs.

Well, that was my day. :D

I think I have lost the ability to have fun with people sometimes. I'm becoming a cynical old lady already. I can't even seem to have bizarre free-for-all conversations anymore. ;_;

I need to do some life revitalization! If only I wasn't so lazy most of the time. >.> I need to work on that too.

[EDIT]: I think I hate my brother. He's such an asshat. *shakes fist at him*

[Iunctus Epitaph] || [An FFVII RPG]

Faced with a deadly threat, will they stand together or die alone?

( The Premise )

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anrixan, this was the RP that I poked you about. :)

I was given the link to this website that was downright hilarious. ANyone that needs a laugh who hasn't already seen "Steve, Don't Eat It", I encourage you to read his blog. Some of the stuff he writes had me in stitches. I hope he updates :D

Don't Eat It!

A friend of mine keeps telling me to get into small paragraph prompts. I think that I should, but there are so many series out there that I don't know. I admit my cowardice when it comes to just putting things on the communities I'm in. I don't want to fail... at the internet! Woe!

Someone might be making a .Hack//G.U. mood theme. :D I luvs them!

I saw Stardust last night. I thought it would be a lot more serious than it was, so I was pleasantly surprised. There were a lot of good jokes, and the Sky Pirate made everything about the movie worth it (I won't give spoilers). I really thought it would be titled 'Final Fantasy' under the 'Stardust' title.

There is a new application period in damned coming up, and I know I want to apply for a character. I just don't know who I want to apply for, actually. My Cloud interpretation seems to have been well-received so far in the game, but now I feel I can have another character.

My current list of possibilities is:
Haseo (.Hack//G.U. - kind of want to wait on him since the 3rd volume is coming out in September)
J.E.N.O.V.A (Final Fantasy VII 'cause mother knows best :D)
Hugo (Suikoden III)
Pesmerga (Suikoden I & II)
Nagini (Harry Potter... don't you judge me. It's a freakin' snake!)

Any suggestions?

I'm planning on making trip to Vancouver in the next two weeks. I need to discuss with my manager when so I don't have the afterhours phone. So, usagivindaloo and the_giant prepare yourselves. :D I need to good roadtrip!

I saved up all my money, and I finally went out and slapped down some money for a proper car audio system. It's going to cost me quite the bunch of cash, but it is going to look sweet in my ride. :D

I'm so happy! It took me months to save up my money for it, and I've been toying with the idea for awhile now. Of course, the place I went to seems really awesome, even though I have to wait until the end of the month for installation. It's still going to be worth it, and I get a lifetime warrenty on the labour done on my car.

I can't wait to shake my little red car up with some good base!